1<br > To have a reason to get up in the morning， it is nee-<br > essary to possess a guiding principle. A belief of<br > some kind. A bumper sticker， if you will. People in<br > cars on busy freeways call to each other Boycott<br > ~rapes， comfort each other Honk if You Love Jesus，<br > joke with each other Be Kind to Animals -Kiss a<br > Beaver. They identify， they summarize， they antago-<br > nize with statements of faith: 1 Have a Dream， Too<br >--Law and Order; Jesus Saves at Chicago Fed; Rod<br > McKuen for President.<br > Lying on his back in bed， he gazes around the walls<br > of his room， musing about what has happened to his<br >collection of statements. They had been discreetly<br >mounted on cardboard， and fastened up with push<br >pins so as not to deface the walls. Gone now. Prob-<br >ably tossed out with the rest of the junkall those<br >eight-by-ten colorprints of the Cubs， White Sox， and<br >Bears， junior-high mementos. Too bad. It would be<br >comforting to have something to look up to. Instead，<br >the walls are bare. They have been freshly painted.<br >Pale blue. An anxious color. Anxiety is blue; failure，<br >gray. He knows those shades. He told Crawford they<br >would be back to sit on the end of his bed， paralyzing<br >him， shaming him， but Crawford was not impressed.<br ><br >